"Soarele Meu" means "My Sun" in Romanian.
I must have been around 16-17 when this cute boy I used to hold hands with around the park in my little home town in Romania, with eyes like "unripe furniture", broke up with me! Of course I had to let it all out in a song starting with "Hey baby I've been through this 10 000 times before, it won't even give me the shivers...". And then I go on telling him that whether or not I hurt now, the world is far from over, actually I am the one feeling sorry for him, and the sun will eventually rise and shine in my life again!
Typical teenager bravado (at least about the part with 10 000 times before), but fast forward the same amount of years and I find myself in my early thirties, ending another - this time much more serious and painful - relationship, and looking for consolation inside myself, for words and sounds to put in a liberating song!
I remember this one - I listen, and it's perfect, it lists up minutely all my feelings, lets my frustrations play out while I mock his incapacity to grasp me and the whole situation, and show myself stronger and kinder and wiser than I actually am, and it feels damn good, so then I can secretly wipe off all my tears repeating "My sun will rise again!", with a hopeful and confident smile till I believe it! (Are we really never evolving past the emotional maturity of 17...?)
That felt so good that I re-recorded the song and gave it a little Youtube video featuring my at-the-time best friend, teddybear Shawn. (which you can watch here: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ma703C8xF04 )
So why did I resurect this song - again - for my next album?
Because it's good vibes! It's smile, and faith in oneself despite all imperfections, and it's laughing in the face of disappointment and failure!
Because it's hope!
Because the rhythm section musicians who played it for the album were so awesome, with a groove so laid back and almost happily jumping at the same time!
And also because people I care about have told me to do it!